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Monday, November 02, 2009

Mon, 02 Nov 2009 19:59:24 GMT

F dude. Go sleep
You just dun know wt it means to sleep early huh?!
You really wanna overdo urself and result in pimples all over your face huh?!
If not, go sleep.
Plz, go sleep, i beg u.

You shouldnt belong to darkness. Repent

Monday, October 26, 2009

Mon, 26 Oct 2009 07:36:40 GMT

遊覽闊別一時的FB，真箇樂不思蜀...
但我不敢忘記，在海拔3000米上，白雪中，蔚藍天，穹山淌水，蒼茫所帶來的感觸

「有更重要的事情要做」叮

祝我生日快樂之極無聊統計

Wed, 14 Oct 2009 20:27:53 GMT

我24才了。
今年收到的祝福賀詞比往年多得多，我不敢去想是什麼原因，總之開FB時看見右下角有幾十個notification時，快樂是真實的。
那便足夠了。

現今世代能夠向一個人寄語的方法多得很，各適其式，以「生日快樂」為例，以我今趟經驗的大概排名估計如下：

1. Facebook Wall - 54%
2. 電話message - 20%
3. 見面但唔講，盡在不言中 - 12%
4. 見面先講 - 8%
5. 電話講 - 2%
6. MSN message - 4%

有部份人會做幾樣，以上數據只顯示First encounter，即係如果有個人電話msg完過幾個鐘見面再講，佢都count as係電話msg。
我做呢個統計係想講，msg在現今世代變得幾重要......
當中有些留了msg的朋友因為種種原因當時未能及時回覆，現請對號入座：

F：「你是臨近13號0:00前的第一位，雖然在數日前見面你已講左，但教正時間再留msg真係好有心，要向你再三叩....指頭好冇.....」
E：「同你唔算好熟但你在0:00正send msg來，真係好有心好驚喜，Orz」
S：「你也是將近最準時的一位，很多謝你還記得並在乎我。msg雖短，但佢象徵既意義好大」
M：「最早跟我慶祝並同我講生日快樂的人，而且每逢過節總是準時send msg，一個人有冇心，就係咁樣累積印象而黎。我人生中，最有時間觀念你睇怕都係其中之一」
Z：「晨早起身即刻去FB留言，有心係有心喇，但女仔close friend中係爭你未見，好快d俾d交代喇下」
L：「又係起身即刻留msg，另一位有心人，你兩姊妹真係brighten左我既生日 =)」
K：「言短情長，多謝你令我下定決心」
V：「等我番來同你去赤柱一齊補祝」

以上所有都係諗起但冇覆的msg，全部都係女仔。係我係好偏心的

It's all about Time

Tue, 06 Oct 2009 21:14:03 GMT

It's been long since i critique a movie in English. There are several reasons that this triggers my nerve.
From my point of view, it's a great story. I was moved, and I know that I'd sit like an ass who doesnt give a damn to this movie 24hrs later from now.
I barely do free ad for movies unless it's really good.
And "A Time Traveler's Wife" in overall isnt one of the best, it's like its name - easily forgotten and neglectable.
So i'd rather say it's a great story, not movie. Viewing it as a movie, there are quite many things pushing me off.
This is a great, moving story with cleverly written screenplay. I suggest all to view it this way.

For ppl who hvnt watched yet:
One must put either one or all of the following in mind when watching a "Time travel fiction":

Rule 1: Never question possibility. Time travel is in general an idea, not even hypothesis. (Such like u wont question if shaolin soccer can actually be practiced)

Rule 2: No "What if". Be played, be a guest of the screenplay. Yes the story is "wud gei", so take it as it is.
Rule 3: Again i emphasize, Stop slamming ur head against the wall by dedicating to the tedium of explaining "how time travel works"

For ppl who watched & ths i wanna share:
The screenplay was cleverly written. Knowing that it was altered from a novel, it should be well given that many sidelines were left behind.
"Time Travel fiction" is always a pain for storyteller --- that one will easily influence the past as "Butterfly Effect" put a tagline on how history could easily been affected.
However, this story add sth to make the story enjoyable and arguably "functionable."
1. Henry's travel is involuntary in both time and place (minimizes the possible collateral influence to the future/past)
2. Henry could not bring along anything with his travel (reason same as above)
3. Henry met himself (talked) only once when he was a child throughout the whole story (reason same as above)
4. Henry began to travel to his after-life only within the few years when he knew he's about to die (reason same as above)
5. So on.

So both the screenplay n author really did their best to make the story sounds to make sense.
What's the point to do that much of work?!
Return to the film.
Henry & Clare were like every ordinary couples. They fight, and they wanna do wt all ppl wanna do.
Except that Henry has an add-on that he could have a glimpse of the future and be forced to go back & forth between the past and future.
And this differentiates an ordinary relationship into an exceptional love story.
Why? What is it that makes the story special, what is it that makes Henry & Clare love each other deeper than other couples?
Have the lens focus back to the story.
When Henry & Clare dun sleep tgt, when Henry ligates himself, what makes their relationship back to the romantic, beautiful track?
It's when the future Henry appears shot in front of them.
3 secs.
Reminds Clare that she had never seen Henry older than his 40ish.
So Henry & Clare realized that Henry was going to die. So from then every seconds of them being tgt are valuable as gold.
Think about it.
Isnt it we become ultra-passionate about things that r in its descending moments?
Isnt it we treat our lovers/frds damn good when either of us known to be leaving to somewhere?

AND WHY THE F**K SHOULD WE BEHAVE LIKE THAT?!!!?!?!!
Shit happens, ppl dies, contact loses, number changes, account crashes...

I was doing perfect fine 100mins of the film.
But in the near final scene of Clare running towards Henry, my eyes were filled with tears.
"They just wanna stay tgt for a while."
"They just wanna stay tgt for a while."
"They just wanna stay tgt for a while. Let em plz" echos in my head.
And i "pray" that the screenplay allows them to do so (OH MY GOD).

When stuff happen like this, I know that this is a film worth watching & be listed, for me
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Somehow afterall, I feel that movie filming a love story works as if a religion.
People who doesnt understand love / question about love / haunting by love may energizes themselves thru sitting in a cinema.
After then ppl may think over ths, act on ths, and regain hope in their damanged relationships - or,
Be blessed and be even happier on their way back home.
Isnt these wt we Christian got from fellowship and worship?

They just not that straight forward reading the words from Bible but listening to paraphrases thru movies, actors and music.
In other words - this is very off topic and arguable - one may preach Christianity thru everything.
I didnt edit any of this long passage and things just pop out from my head

p.s. Why does the film named "Time Traveler's Wife"?
I think it's metaphoric......we all, somehow should live like Clare, be courageous towards destiny saying, "I dun wanna change a sec of our lives"
And take it as it is.
Take it as it is.

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Wed, 30 Sep 2009 10:27:04 GMT

昨日醫生終於把我左耳的頑劣耳垢清除
剎那間我聽見外邊的車聲人聲X聲，所有事情頃刻調高了音量，閉塞逾兩星期的左耳重獲functioning的樂趣，感覺很不自然
我才知道，原來十數年來，我一直以為的聲音並不是一直以為的聲量
即是說，電影院是應該更震撼的，mp3是長期音量過高的，雨聲是「滴答」而不「滴瀝」，阿媽是真的有叫我起床只是我聽不見......
咦？原來volume15已很大聲，我常較到25......

很不習慣，但我知道會漸漸習慣
就好像在治療前我習慣了左耳聽不見東西，然後現在要重新習慣聽得見
就好像從前習慣了有個人會24小時on call，然後現在已習慣整天也沒有來電
所有事情，不論好壞，都總會循時日而習慣

而耳朵給我的提示是：一直以為的事情其實可能不是一直以為的樣子
我記得有同一個感覺的時候是五年前的九月，那時我覺得世界不再一樣，我獲得重生
然後我漸漸習慣重生後的世界，現在卻忘掉重生的初衷，雜質再度累積，再度遮蔽心靈
曾有一段時間，volume15我已能聽見，什麼時候我竟要調到volume25卻仍然......？
追隨神的路，就好比追隨mute

當信了神，一直以為的世界其實不是一直以為的樣子，但污垢仍會累積，所以要定時清理

R.I.P Gabriel Garcia Marquez

Sun, 13 Sep 2009 17:14:25 GMT

「人們總以為當他們漸漸老了，他們會停止去愛。我多麼想告訴他們，這是錯的。人是在停止去愛的那一刻漸漸老去的。」

波友吹水實錄

Sun, 06 Sep 2009 18:37:00 GMT

話說我今日踢踢下波突然流鼻血，
之後隊友當然上前慰問，對手哂冧以為自己撞到我：「sor, 整親你唔好意思」
以下係當中極爛既對話：

「唔關事，係因為見到索女者」
「下，咁堅，係邊？」
「係呀索到我要避一避，真係好大鑊」
「走左未？」
「你唔覺得好索？曬哂出黎喎人地」
說完我步出球場止血。

15分鐘後仁兄難敵心癮再問：
「真係見唔到喎，頭先係邊架，係咪對面個個？我埋去睇過普通野咋喎」
「唔係哩，而家仲係度，佢真係曬到人火都黎喎」
「我 X，曬X壞左你個腦真係」
「係呀，尋日仲索呀，34架，今日差d，得32」
「嘩X你尋日幾點同佢搞，34？」
「我個個禮拜都同佢朝早10點搞到成點鐘」
「唔怪得你又流鼻血又腳軟啦」
「冇計啦，班friend叫到又冇理由唔去」
「我就冇你咁癲，而家頂都龍都係5pm打後先考慮」
「個時d女又俾人mark哂者」
「所以咪勤力d寫信mark鐘囉，幾十封多數都有幾個場既」
「下次預埋呀咁，我都想玩25樓下」
「我諗10月先有啦，而家至少都仲有27-28」
「都好啦，出到火就得」
「9/20囉，都係3-5，長沙灣，same team」
「應該ok，我會記住個個星期如果朝早係30樓上就唔搞了，費事又爆鼻血」
「係囉，你估你係黑鬼咩，啃唔落架」
「對上一個禮拜真係有黑鬼，又係34，佢地都頂唔順要中場休息」
「所以你真係燒壞左個腦，癡X線個個時間踢波」
「唔係咁我都唔知原來我地香港人d體力同黑鬼有得揮」
「你以為啦X，人地幾寸你知唔知？」
「佢幾寸都好，我都聽唔明啦」
「喂有冇再爛d」
「我地呢段對話真係好爛」
「你知就好，X，我仲以為真係有索女搞到頭先分哂心」
「你搞多陣先換我，我岩岩先乾，驚而家出去又濕番」
「ok啦，你一陣出去射多d」
「都要你俾到我先得架」
「你一掂個波就射左佢啦，我地冇咁支力，唔使上黎助攻嘛」
「你話射就射呀，咁易咩」
「盡量啦，打中場真係好X支力」
「頂有幾呀，你成場都冇射過」
「......X」

(以上是Break期間波友之間的設計對白)

學游泳

Sat, 29 Aug 2009 09:10:11 GMT

昨天去了我以為自己不會再踏足的地方 - 泳池
我大概有一個世紀沒有進過泳池
大概有一個世紀沒有把頭沒入水裡去
昨天潛進去時以為會喝下不知多少水然後泳池水中毒然後休克然後可能成為香港首個喝泳池水暈倒的人
但我沒有
水雖然是喝了不少，但我竟然好像學懂了一點點竅門
我原來不是想像中那麼畏水

我原來不是想像中那麼畏水......
這令我有點不知所措，我一直以為她是我的弱點
但原來我是有可能駕馭她的
我告訴自己，我催眠自己，我可以駕馭她

然後有一天當我想起她時，我可以在水裡把她游去，就像"Bleu"裡的Julie
所以我想學懂游泳，我想有能力去拯救自己，把無助與軟弱游去

想慳錢？踢波囉

Sun, 23 Aug 2009 19:47:13 GMT

8/15 10am-12pm 九龍仔街場
8/16 3pm-5pm RFC@界限街運動場友賽 4:1
8/16 9pm-10pm PBU@觀塘遊樂場 1:1 (4:2)
8/18 5pm-7pm 九龍仔街場
8/20 8pm-10pm RFC@維園友賽 4:3
8/22 8pm-10pm RFC@九龍仔運動場 4:1
8/23 10am-12pm 九龍仔街場

8/15 阿仙奴 6:1愛華頓
8/22 阿仙奴 4:1樸茨茅夫

8/15-23 我8日踢左7場波睇左愛隊大勝兩場，而比賽連續兩星期全勝，共取得2入球2助攻
我變左波牛......我頭先竟然連熱刺vs韋斯咸都撈......

代價係膚色再黑黑黑，曬甩皮，額頭瘀左，右腳指公甲爆左。
而家捏小腿肌肉個種疲軟感簡直係冇得頂，一屈大腿就好似想抽筋

成個星期大都累到自動波訓著，唔想思考唔一定要酒，運動亦可以
如果真係一刻都唔想清醒，雙管齊下，踢完波用啤酒解渴，再夜深睇波......

但原來波牛如我，其實都難敵一個電話call......
頂，又訓唔著了

[轉載] True or Dare

Wed, 19 Aug 2009 17:47:18 GMT

一個晚上，有電話打來，單看號碼，實在想不起是誰︰「喂，係咪阿煇呀？」 WOW, 是女孩打來，一定是好事，但仍想不起是哪位佳人︰「你係……？」「阿芝呀，冇呀，打個電話畀你之嘛，哈哈哈，bye bye~」便掛了線。這個電話實在是摸不著頭腦，但一說到阿芝，便想起是數年前想追求的女孩，這真是個驚喜，但為甚麼會突然間打來？真是耐人尋味，莫非……莫非…… 這晚，有無窮幻想，快樂到睡不著覺。

那邊箱，在一間酒吧內，一群男女嘻嘻哈哈，其中一個略有微醉的男士道︰「嗱嗱嗱！都話同阿芝玩ture or dare好玩架啦，乜都肯制！」一個o靚模打扮的女子深深吸一口煙，回應道︰「我屌你班仆街，出D題目咁撚絶，咩咩call十條追過我的傻仔，差D畀你地考起呀，諗極都諗唔到第十個，好彩睇睇下個電話，又畀我搵到個，條友好似幾冧我。頭先打去，個傻仔一聽到係女仔聲即時D聲線都唔同晒，好似未掂過女仔o個D電車男咁，真係忍笑忍得好撚辛苦，嗱嗱林收線，哈哈哈…」說罷吹了半支喜力。坐她對面的金毛男道︰「咁開心，不如下次約條撚樣出來大家笑下啦。」阿芝道︰「屌你老母呀！」

p.s. 本想過濾一下那些單字，但沒有它們始終失色。原汁原味才好看。